..i need help..

so much has happened in the past couple weeks.. ive have never been so depressed, sad, and argry in my life. so much has happened in the past couple weeks and I still wonder why everything always has to happen at once .. maybe its just my bad couple of weeks.. or maybe im doomed to be like this for the rest of my life.. but when stuff like this happens nothing sounds better then to just sit in your room , breakdown and cry!!! .. its not so much That I Havent asked for help.. I have.. and what i get for a responce? A Big Nothing.. but ohwell.. I guess its better to be alone & cry by yourself anyway.. right?

Angel

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it ok
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless
And maybe I'll find some peace tonight
(Chorus)
In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness
Oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
(Chorus)
In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

I always loved this song.. now it has a new meaning to me.. and it means so much more.. ♥

Depressed Again

It's been a bad day
I'm getting used to it now
another sad day
I'd cry but I dunno how
I'm drowning in thoughts
of how things used to be
my chest was shut tight
complete w/ purity
It's out in the open
should've kept to myself
I'll learn from mistakes
take my heart off the shelf
my soul has now fled
it's my body alone
and it's far too much hurt
for my heart to come home
I give it up now
there's no way to win
w/o you here
my world still spins
It's been a bad day
I'll try to let it not show
another sad day
and I'm just letting go....

And the days gets colder.

and I get older.

and I have no shoulder.

to cry on.

and I cant seem to

let go.