How?

how can someone so close to you, cause you so much pain, not like physical pain, but mentally and spirtually,

you wonder why were not as close as we use to be, well really, the fact is that ive drawn away from you by the way you treat me, you wonder why i dont talk to you like i use to, the fact is i dont wanna talk to you like i use to! swearing and cursing and telling me that im useless, that im stupid, to just shut my mouth and not talk? doesnt really help things, its you that makes me feel like crawling into a ball in my room and crying until i choke! or until i run out of tears, its you i go to for self cofidence, for motivatavion, for guidance, for help, and you shoot me down, you shoot me down so bad, and you ask me why i dont talk to you?

and another thing, i really wish that you would listen to what i have to say. Because everytime i try to talk to talk to you or say somthing, it goes in ear and out the other, and when you ask me about somthing later. I tell you i already told you like 2 other times, but then you start yelling at me for not just telling me, or how i lie, or how i just want to pick another fight with you, It just makes me teary when i think about it, because we use to be so close, and we just got so far

Im not trying to make you seem like the bad guy, because there have been times when Ive been the same, i just wish this would stop, really

Ill be praying for our relationship, and hope that you'll realize that the only person you wanna be with is Christ, other then that, i just dont know what to do.