hands and feet

An image flashed across my TV screen
Another broken heart comes in to view
I saw the pain and I turned my back
Why can't I do the things I want to?
I'm willing yet I'm so afraid
You give me strength
When I say
CHORUS
I want to be your hands
I want to be your feet
I'll go where you send me
I'll go where you send me
REPEAT CHORUS
And I'll try, yeah I'll try
To touch the world like You touched my life
And I'll find my way
To be your hands
I'll abandon every selfish thought
I'll surrender every thing I've got
You can have everything I am
And perfect everything I'm not
I'm willing, I'm not afraid
You give me strength
When I say
CHORUS 2X
And I'll try, yeah I'll try
To touch the world like You touched my life
And I'll find my way...
BRIDGE
This is the last time
I turn my back on You
From now on, I'll go out
Send me where You want me to
I finally have a mission
I promise I'll complete
I don't need excuses
When I am your hands and feet
(I am your hands and feet)
(hands...4x)
(feet...4x)
(go...4x)
(go...4x)
CHORUS 3X
I will go
I will go where you send me
I will go
I will go where you send me
I will go, go
I will go, go
I will go, go where you send me
CHORUS


I love how this song talks about people working through God.. its so powerful. For that I love this world! I know its full of EVERYTHING that God doesn't want us to be apart of, but the reason we were put on this earth is so then we can help stop that in the name of Jesus.. thats so powerfu to me, and someday Im going to do the same! :)

I am so THANKFUL !

HAPPY THANKSGIVING! My favourite time of year. Not because of the turkey. I dont even care about that, because everybody christian or not counts thier blessings, they're not afraid to say how thankful they are for different things. It's so great to hear!

After the church service today, I got to thinking, what am I thankful for? I know theres many things to be thankful for like food and a roof over my head. But only one thing came to mind, Family.

I am so thankful for my family. I don't show it in an obvious way. But its just so good to have a family. I feel so lucky everyday for little things like my parents are still together, or that they both have jobs, and that they care about me, and my sister's as much as they do. I know I say some stuff that I probabaly shouldnt to them. and I know they can be a hassle. But at the end of the day its just so good to have Family. and I thank God for them everyday.

I also thank God for giving me the power to keep going on his word everyday. I know there can be times when I just want to give up, and I thank him for the people he put in my life to keep me going.

What an amazing Day, It hasnt really even started yet and I still have so much to be thankful for.

what my life consists of ..

Family

Friends

God.

New teachers, books, classes, its like im starting over high school again. This year has changed so much compared to last year, the halls are 3 times as crowded, the work is certianlly harder... and, well, thats about it.

So far this year has been challenging and adventurous. I find it challenging because of all the new teachers that have no idea what their doing while us students just want to get to our right classes. I also find it challenging because I guess its true when they say grade 10 is hard! While Leo Hayes students had the luxery of getting a few days off, I was doing homework! I find it adventurous because ive made new friends, joined some new groups, tried some things id never thought I'd try. So far its been quite adventurous..... if you ask me

Well if you were wondering how my school year is going. there you go! If not, well, you just read it anyway, so, haha!

i love band!!!! :)

WOO!

Just sending a congrats to Kate, Alex, Erin, Jon, Greg, and all other graduates! You got 'er done! wooo!

I Need You

I've dug up miles and miles of sand
Searching for something I can't see
And I've just got bruised and battered hands
And a brand new void inside of me
Complete with walls I did create
From all the earth that I've displaced
A mess that I have made from what
I've just let pile and pile up
I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten
I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything, everything I need
Explore the cave that is my chest
The torch reveals there's nothing left
Your whispers echo off the walls
And you can hear my distant calls
The voice of who I used to be
Screaming out "someone, someone please
Please shine a light into the black
Wade through the depths and bring me back
I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten
I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything, everything I need
I need you
I need you now
When my hopes seem to dangle
Somewhere just beyond my reach
You say you've heard my prayers
And read my words there on the beach
I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything, everything
I need you
I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
Cause you're everything, everything, everything..
I need you now

schools

well, ever since my last rant about schools back in september, Ive been doing good about the hole schools issue, but i dislike how i don't even get a say anymore in my future!

I love nackawic, Its a nice small school with a good education.. and you can make friends easily. Whats not to like? But ever since ive known what leo hayes is I have earned to go there and I just don't understand why I am not there yet! You know when you have leo hayes friends it can be hard to be the only one who goes to nackawic.. not like thats why I would like to endure leo hayes, but I dont think some of them realise how much it gets to me.. NHS is obviously a good school, sure they don't have a hockey team this year nor a football team, but if you base a school on that stuff then obviously your an airhead sports junky who only cares about hockey and football! I don't care if you like leo hayes better then nackawic... you just dont need to rub in my face, because you will just make me cry! and you will not like it, because when I cry, it is not a pretty sight..

so please.. while im making it through this... school phase phrensey.. thats all I ask of you.. :)

The Weekend!

This weekend was totally awesome if i do say so myself! =) had a great time guys!

Memories

- The bird that got fried on the powerline

- seeing SM3 in Imax! .. the friggen bushleauge water!

- "I call the back, in the middle, with my feet on the hump!"

- The Bryan Regon(SP?) CD..

- Lily's Theme Song

- How they spell 'Sportchek'

ps; Happy Birthday To Me!! :)

SO PUMPEDD! <3

hehe, :) so pumped, only 1 more week! <3

im still letting go
im still letting go
im still letting go
of my poor maple leafs x2

the playoffs were so close
but not for the leafs i guess
even though they kicked butt
they never tryed there best!

so us fans will have to deal,
act like our lifes arent over
and result to such teams as the senators

only, and only, because..

were still letting go
were still letting go
were still letting go
of our poor maple leafs

I think its that time
so let you all know
that I'll always love the leafs
even if christian doesn't

ERG!

UGH! i am SICK! abosoutly sick of it

you know what, I pray, and I pray, and I pray, and I pray and I pray! and you know what happens, nothing, absoutly nothing!!

Now, I know God makes things happen for a reason, but not to have good relationships with reletives, I truly to not get!!

Is it somthing I say towards them?? somthing I do? I don't know what I'm doing to offend people, apperently I give diry looks, roll my eyes at people constantly and mouth off ever other word.. News to me!? I always thought I was a nice person..

and you know what, It hurts, it really does, and I hate how many times ive been down the road with this one person, I try to talk to them, but it seems like my words just never get through!? I need you, I do, I need you..

I'm just so annoyed, so frustrated and ticked off. Why won't you listen to me! =(

ITS COMMING!

HNIBC IN 13 DAYS! =)

only human!!

Okay, a girl can only take so much of "The leafs suck" or, "Haha The leafs never made the playoffs" .Until you want to pound somthing into the ground! This reminds me of Lily when she had the situation of people always saying "Penguins suck" or, "Crosby Sucks". You know what, just as bad!!! gah!!

Okay, I've figured out the leafs suck. Okay? I don't care anymore, they do. I mean there only a team in the NHL, but. Whatever, whatever you says goes now doesn't it? Not really, Now i have never said the leafs are the best team in the world, but I am a hockey fan, I love hockey, I love the leafs, and saying the leafs suck, is probably the supidest thing in the hole world!! Stupid, you obviously either 1. Dont watch hockey 2. Want to annoy me.. Obviously its not that you don't like the leafs, or your a fan of some other team. Because if you did you would know to keep that crap to yourself! I know some people that happen to not like the leafs and go for other teams, and they are nothing like that unless were joking around... so mainly, yeah. I get it at school... GRRR!!!!!!!!! its stupid, its dumb. and I don't like it one bit... Does noone know nothing about hockey anymore?!!!

Now as for "haha, the leafs never made the playoffs" leading to "they suck" comment, well, if you watched hockey in the least bit, you would know they won there last game, but if they would of pulled there socks up, they probabaly woulda made it. but that does not mean they dont suck!! Get over it, the leafs should not be for bashing, so shutup!! Im sick of it, pain ol sick!!

I see you never made the playoffs either..

did you?!

kay..

You know what inches my skin? Fake fans. Yes, there is a such thing! Not saying that if your a hockey fan you have to know everything about your team, but atleast knowing a few players and watching some games, ya know. Keeping tabs on them. Kinda helps:P

I know people can relate with me when they dislike how people can just switch teams in an instant, I mean. Its okay if say you make a switch from ..... Bosten to the Leafs! (who can blame ya???), But when you switch you're favourite team everyday, week.. whatever. Really, what kind of fan are you?

Well, in the matter of switching teams all the time, I can kinda see that with christianity, if you don't know enough about Jesus, what hes done, and why he gave salvation. You're more then likely to switch to not having a faith at all, or somthing else, not knowing what you're getting yourself into! we gotta realize theres only one way. (like with hockey, theres only one way! the leafs!! haha, jk!) . But yes, you see my point. Funny how you can make anything in this world to do with a lesson about God. Makes sence, i mean. He did create it.

Confuzzeled

yes, a word some of you hear me use quite often, but this situation i really don't get.

Fights; I just don't get them. Now I myself, absoutly dislike fights yet alone the thought of people not liking me.. a bad habit i know, so when somebody gets mad at me, I usually try to resolve the conflict as fast as possible (because i hate fights!!), and it seems like most of the time, the fights. Thier really dumb!

Now i can understand if you fight because you don't agree on somthing, or because of somthing someone said, or somthing. But when people get 'mad' at me because of somthing I did, (like, ahem. Not putting my hear down ?!) Now that! Is just plain stupid.

Not like im calling people stupid, I just think you should choose your battles, if somthing does somthing you dont enjoy (example. swearing) Just talk to the person instead of making a big deal, getting mad at them, saying all this stuff behind thier back to other people and roll your eyes at them everytime you see them!!

thats really a big pet peeve of my, i just don't like it one bit.

I mean, what if God. Everytime we did somthing he didn't like, he got mad at us and wouldn't talk to us ? just cut us off in everyway, when we ask for forgiveness, he just cuts you off because he doesn't wanna forgive you yet. Wouldn't that sadden you ? make you frustrated ? Make you lose faith in him, exactly, but we know he would never do somthing like that, he loves us too much!

ahh , i feel a bit better.. =) but it still confuzzels me

A thing called friends

well, everyonce and awhile I really think its useful to put a post about my friends, mostly because I want them to remember how much they mean to me..

The last couple weeks have been good, really good, i've been surrounded in love and friends in an abundant amount, it just makes me happy to have the friends I do. they're all so awesome, I mean we have trials and arguements, but thats what makes us strong, i just. Love it. :)

and also, I had to make an update, so chips.. and go leafs ooohhh

wasting time

Hey yall! Well, Just to let you know since you've probabaly been wondering so much, I had amazingly relaxing March break, the way it should be! Though, near the end of this extrodinary event, I caught a cold. Ahh! Run away! Oh the horror! Not really, but. Ahem. So I was sick Saturday, Sunday, and half of Monday, (Just enough so I could miss school and go to youth group!).. I mean.................... Anyways, yes. My point? Well, since I missed Monday I of course had to catch up today. Now, I've missed a couple of other days, and Never have I had SOO much homework all year, its absoutly nuts! So here I am, wasting time, writing in my blog so I can have an excuse to put my homework off.

I think thats what we can all be like as christians, even non-christians, we can all say that we love God, but were gunna stop swearing later, wasting time, with Non christians, they could just say they're going to become a christian later, waste time. But in the kingdome of God, you can't waste time, its better to become a christian now, then later, we can't be guarented a tomorrow! So we should act today, now! and not waste time!

Anyways, since I'm talking about not wasting time, I better get to that homework! Have a great week folks & God bless ...:)

cell phones

Read this guys!! its good..

"CELL PHONE vs. BIBLE"(author unknown) I wonder what would happen if we treated our Bible like we treat our cell phone?

What if we carried it around in our purses or pockets?
What if we flipped through it several times a day?
What if we turned back to go get it if we forgot it?
What if we used it to receive messages from the text?
What if we treated it like we couldn't live without it?
What if we gave it to kids as gifts?
What if we used it when we traveled?
What if we used it in case of emergency?

This is something to make you go....hmm...where is my Bible?
Makes you stop and think "where are my priorities?"
Oh, and one more thing. Unlike our cell phone, we don't have to worry about our Bible being disconnected because Jesus already paid the bill. And no dropped calls!

thank the Lord for march break!!

Its march break!! praise the Lord! haha, this week has been pretty crazy. It's been basically about Homework & Sleep! everynight i've been up pretty late just doing homework.. mostly because I would come home from school and sleep.. see what I mean?! plus other events that have gone on in my week and things have just been out of whack, so I decided not to go to the little fun day at school and sleep instead!! and I feel superly good. I also spent today cleaning my room considering I deicded to stay up later last night watching CSI & Greys anotomy. Half which i don't even rememeber I was that tired. All i know is that when I woke up this morning clothes were stranded everywhere (from slowly digging out my closest every morning this week) things were in places they shouldent be; My clock that hangs on my high wall was stranded half way across the room, chairs were knocked over and other things. Pretty weird what can happen when you don't relize it. HAHAHA.

anywho, what are my plans for over march break you ask? pretty much getting my sleeping habits back on tact and seeing some old friends I haven't saw for a while.. other then that.. yeah!

well Im off because Im hungry and theres pizza in the oven that is probabaly burning!

later!

without anything,

where will I go
to find you my Jesus
where will I run
to Find your great love

I'm a lost sinner
shattered to pieces
keeping my secrets
from your great son

I can't find mercy
no I can't find grace
I can't find forgiveness
and I can't find space
without your sweet loving
your humble words
without anything,
of yours

running for miles
yet i am nowhere
running for miles
to hit rock bottem

will I ever find
where I'm destined to be
or will i remain clueless 'cause

I can't find mercy
no I can't find grace
I can't find forgiveness
and I can't find space
without your sweet loving
your humble words
without anything,
of yours

... still in the making.. it just came into my head and I had to write it down, express your comments if you wish =)<3

Amazing Things!!

okay, well this past weekend I attended a TADD confrence. Whats a TADD confrence you ask, well first of all TADD=Teens against drunk driving.=P and a tadd confrence is basically like a youth confrence, youth confrences go to learn more about Jesus in an energetic way, Tadd confrences are the same, cept they learn about how to promote what we don't want to happen! you get it? well if you already did, your set.

Well this weekend I have learned alot, I did! and not only about different Ideas to promote to my school but other completely different things like slavery and sweatshops in Africa.

we had 2 different speakers that were on this team of people that go over to countries in poverty and teach kids how to speak english and build school houses, there names were Garry Norman & Erin Blanding.

The vibe they had was so fresh, so new, so enegertic, i was lucky to be one of the people in a workshop of thiers, basically they did there workshop on "7 steps to making a difference" it was amazing the ideas they had, they did all these activites to show everystep, like number 5 was create a mission statement, so they had 6 volunteers, (i was one of them) and we picked a topic and each person had to say either who where what when why and how, and they proved thats basically what a missionstatment was, doesnt sound that motavating, but its really one of those things where you had to be there, it was amazing!

So not only did i get new fresh ideas to bring home to my tadd group, but i got more ideas of how i can make a different merely in my own community!! I'm so excited!!! also, I made a some new friends! horah! can life get any better! ehehehehe

well im off for now! oh, and the pic above is of me in fear factor.. awaiting my deadful challenge:P. ill put up a group picture later!

if you wanna see more pics from my weekend go to the tadd nb bloggy!

www.taddnb.blogspot.com

I love TADD!!!!!!!

stand up, always rememeber, never forget

stand up, stand up for Jesus
stand up and praise his word
stand up, stand up for Jesus
make your voice be herd!

all around, far and wide
are believers all around
making noises of their praise
with such beautiful sounds

rememeber the shackles
rememeber the cross
rememeber the boy
who once was lost
rememeber the blood
rememeber the shame
rememeber the cruilety brought to his name

never forget the lives he saved
never forget the promise he made
always rememeber what he came to do
when he was alive, and here for you

HIS NAME IS JESUS
he lives up above
i love him forever
he has all my love
for he is amazing
he is great
he is always
my hero
my redeemer,
my rock.

MY ETERINTY!

wow, i wrote this, and i think its pretty good, kinda confusing!:) but pretty Good.. :P

could life be any better?: i submit that it could not!

awesome friends, a great family, awesome school friends, a youth group that has some of the best friends i'll ever have, an amazing God. I don't think my life could get any better, sure, sad things happen to me, but if i look at the 3 most important things in life, where can I go wrong?!

I can't go wrong! ever! well, sure, theres a speed bump here & there, but i have a God who loves me! and friends who are always there for me no matter how bad i mess up

maybe the last couple weeks haven't turned out how ive planned. but it all happened for a reason, and it's time for me to wake up once again and get back on track!

Thats why God put the friends we have on earth, to help us along the way of our spirtual journey, he knows we couldent do this on our own!!

I love you Guys!! and i feel so great to be back where i am, Spirtually alive again!! and it feels amazing :)

and right now! this song really decifers how i feel.. :)

There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall

For Your presence to fill up my senses

There's a yearning again

A thirst for discipline

A hunger for things that are deeper

Could You take me beyond?

Could You carry me through?

If I open my heart?

Could I go there with You?

[For I've been here before]

[Yet I know there's still more]

[Oh Lord I need to know You]

For what do I have

if I don't have you Jesus?

What in this life

could mean anymore?

You are my rock

You are my glory

You are the lifter

of my head

ahhhh! so happy right now... :)

i must have done somthing right..

We should get jerseys ‘cause we make a good team
But yours would look better than mine, ‘cause you're out of my league
And I know that it's so cliché to tell you that everyday
I spend with you is the new best day of my life
Everyone watching us just turns away with disgust
It's Jealously, they can see that we've got it going on
And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know your more to me than what I know how to say
You’re ok with the way this is going to be
This is going to be the best thing we've ever seen
If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I got to say is I must have done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I got to say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right
Maybe I'm just lucky ‘cause it's hard to believe
Believe that somebody like you'd end up with someone like me
And I know that it's so cliché to talk about you this way
But I'll push all my inhibitions aside
It's so very obvious to everyone watching us
That we have got something real good going on
And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know your more to me than what I know how to say
You’re ok with the way this is going to be
’Cause this is going to be the best thing we've ever seen
If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I got to say is I must have done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I got to say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right
(Oh’s with bop’s)
If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I got to say is I must have done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I got to say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right
If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I got to say is I must have done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I got to say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right
I must have done something right
I must have done something right

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Photo Sharing - Upload Video - Video Sharing - Share PhotosWooAHHH.. yeah.. so this pacific video was a randome day in tech.. starring jennifer brewer, chelsey gilbert & dexter christie! haha.. video taken by non other then nicky graham! (sorry, this video nor any of my videos have audio..so..YEAH!!) enjoy!!:P

EXAMS!! DONE!! FOREVER! (or atleast till june)

HORAH! HORAH! HORAH! HORAH!

IM DONE EXAMS!! WAHOO!!!

Top ten reasons why exams shouldn't exsist!
10. another stresser for kids, even if they do study alot
9.takes up all your valuable hockey watching time
8. makes kids think to hard, imagen the consenquences!
7.it takes forever to complete
6.They make kids super stressed
5.there dumb
4.you could use a bunch of little tests to make the same mark, why do this to children!
3.there idiotic
2.they make me cry!!!(not really).. but some kids, MAYBE!
and number 1 reason..
Nackawic doesnt give exzemptions, so i have to do ALL of them...


YESSSS!!! EXAMS ARE OVER!!! YAY!!! HALIJUKAHFDJADHIAJH!!

SEE YOU GUYS!! TOMORROW!!

EXAMS!!

wow.. what a week.. 3 exams done, one more to go!! i cant say ive been going out of my way to pass all these exams.. first exam was a breeze, I think that i got a little to cocky thinking, "Oh, well that exam was easy. i wont have to study for tomorrow's as much" Note; never make this accuazation, because the second one was brutal! im glad that i atleast studyed more then i intended to, that was plain stupid of me, haha, so im off to prepare for my last exam, math should be easy, but Im not taking any chances!!

heres to a great semester... Woot!

no title -by me <3

abnormal girl
with her hair in a braid
playing the game of life
the way it should be played

with the syle girl
fake nails, fake life
speaking the foul words, doing the deeds of satan
shes so popular, so with it
and everybody loves her..

why does the world love satan
instead of there own
the guy who loves you
the ruler of the thrown
must we shove greed and filth in his face
when he sacrificed his own?
why does the world love satan
instead of there own

If anyone speaks up
about the word
Its like it had not been said
had not been heard
cause the people of tommorow
are brought into a world thats fake
brought into a world, that God didnt mean to make

why does the world love satan
instead of there own
the guy who loves you
the ruler of the thrown
must we shove greed and filth in his face
when he sacrificed his own?
why does the world love satan
instead of there own

I just dont understand
I will never understand
but i can give him a helping hand
and spread the word again so

everybody will choose Jesus
and leave satan all alone
cause Jesus is the guy that loves you
he will put the world above you
we will give him beauty and grace
like hes always deserved
and when we see his face
no garbage shall be herd
cause everybody will of choosen Jesus
and leave satan all alone
and when we get to heaven
we'll worship Jesus from his almighty thrown