No matter how far I stray away
I know you will never leave me
No matter who I am today
you will always percive me
Even when I dress like this or talk like that.
Your presence is always with me
and I'm thankful that you love me
In the darkest of days
Im just sorry that I left you
I dont want to hurt you
I just want to praise you
Not because you want me to
but because you understand me
And no one has such a hold on me
and I dont want to feel lost again
and I wont with you, my as my friend
So take my hand and stay with me
my friend, my saviour, Jesus
†

truth

I think its time to face the truth
of what I really think of you
because all your words have gone away
yet here you stay, you stay

If I really wanted to go
I would of said so
and now I need to know
if you're sorry

You Realize...

(Chorus)
Telling the truth
would of been easier then this
Telling the truth could of rid the feeling I don't want to miss
If love wasn't a future option
then why was I expecting to be yours?
I guess I was just expecting, more.

I guess I'm just hurt
and its hard to embrace it
did you tell me the truth?
or were you too scared to face it?

*chorus*

- bridge -

If I was so wrong,
then why did you feel so right
I guess I waited to long
for you to make my heart contrite

*chorus*

I'm tired, and I'm scared
for your presence not being there
yet when I walked away I never felt so alive.

By: Chelsey G.

No Matter What Type Of Christianity, I Will Always Love My Savior. :)

Today, I experienced somthing I thought never possible, somthing I thought I would never witness yet alone even think about. Somthing I've never been even aware of what it was until only a short while ago. This certian thing is what we call the 'Holy Ghost'. Now, for those who dont know, the Holy Ghost is when you can feel the presence of Jesus, and its so over-powering and amazing, you start speaking in tongues. Which is what I experinced last night, I experienced what it was like to want to cry laugh and break down all at the same time. Because I could feel Jesus' presence. As soon as I felt the Holy Ghost there was a sence of calmness that Ive never experienced before, Jesus has finally entered my heart in a way that Ive never felt before, I never felt so called to worship now and call on his name, his word has never been so meaningful to me and Ive felt grace that is like no other. Today, a new journey is arising in me. Today, I feel more purpose then any other day, yesterday I prayed to Jesus searching for an anwser and he gave me it. Jesus is my anwser, the only anwser and definatly the purest anwser.

For the Moments I feel faint.

The Cross
A reminder of why christ died.
Gave his life, shed his blood, forsakened his name.
If it weren't for somthing so nobel, and so brave.
The consquences we would of paid, would of been horrid.
So why do some live the way they do?
Knowing of this, yet ignoring it.
Why is Christ such a little thing to us humans?
Why do we treat the gift of salvation as if it was just a gift at christmas time you use once and throw in the corner?
Why?

hands and feet

An image flashed across my TV screen
Another broken heart comes in to view
I saw the pain and I turned my back
Why can't I do the things I want to?
I'm willing yet I'm so afraid
You give me strength
When I say
CHORUS
I want to be your hands
I want to be your feet
I'll go where you send me
I'll go where you send me
REPEAT CHORUS
And I'll try, yeah I'll try
To touch the world like You touched my life
And I'll find my way
To be your hands
I'll abandon every selfish thought
I'll surrender every thing I've got
You can have everything I am
And perfect everything I'm not
I'm willing, I'm not afraid
You give me strength
When I say
CHORUS 2X
And I'll try, yeah I'll try
To touch the world like You touched my life
And I'll find my way...
BRIDGE
This is the last time
I turn my back on You
From now on, I'll go out
Send me where You want me to
I finally have a mission
I promise I'll complete
I don't need excuses
When I am your hands and feet
(I am your hands and feet)
(hands...4x)
(feet...4x)
(go...4x)
(go...4x)
CHORUS 3X
I will go
I will go where you send me
I will go
I will go where you send me
I will go, go
I will go, go
I will go, go where you send me
CHORUS


I love how this song talks about people working through God.. its so powerful. For that I love this world! I know its full of EVERYTHING that God doesn't want us to be apart of, but the reason we were put on this earth is so then we can help stop that in the name of Jesus.. thats so powerfu to me, and someday Im going to do the same! :)

I am so THANKFUL !

HAPPY THANKSGIVING! My favourite time of year. Not because of the turkey. I dont even care about that, because everybody christian or not counts thier blessings, they're not afraid to say how thankful they are for different things. It's so great to hear!

After the church service today, I got to thinking, what am I thankful for? I know theres many things to be thankful for like food and a roof over my head. But only one thing came to mind, Family.

I am so thankful for my family. I don't show it in an obvious way. But its just so good to have a family. I feel so lucky everyday for little things like my parents are still together, or that they both have jobs, and that they care about me, and my sister's as much as they do. I know I say some stuff that I probabaly shouldnt to them. and I know they can be a hassle. But at the end of the day its just so good to have Family. and I thank God for them everyday.

I also thank God for giving me the power to keep going on his word everyday. I know there can be times when I just want to give up, and I thank him for the people he put in my life to keep me going.

What an amazing Day, It hasnt really even started yet and I still have so much to be thankful for.

what my life consists of ..

Family

Friends

God.

New teachers, books, classes, its like im starting over high school again. This year has changed so much compared to last year, the halls are 3 times as crowded, the work is certianlly harder... and, well, thats about it.

So far this year has been challenging and adventurous. I find it challenging because of all the new teachers that have no idea what their doing while us students just want to get to our right classes. I also find it challenging because I guess its true when they say grade 10 is hard! While Leo Hayes students had the luxery of getting a few days off, I was doing homework! I find it adventurous because ive made new friends, joined some new groups, tried some things id never thought I'd try. So far its been quite adventurous..... if you ask me

Well if you were wondering how my school year is going. there you go! If not, well, you just read it anyway, so, haha!

i love band!!!! :)

WOO!

Just sending a congrats to Kate, Alex, Erin, Jon, Greg, and all other graduates! You got 'er done! wooo!

I Need You

I've dug up miles and miles of sand
Searching for something I can't see
And I've just got bruised and battered hands
And a brand new void inside of me
Complete with walls I did create
From all the earth that I've displaced
A mess that I have made from what
I've just let pile and pile up
I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten
I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything, everything I need
Explore the cave that is my chest
The torch reveals there's nothing left
Your whispers echo off the walls
And you can hear my distant calls
The voice of who I used to be
Screaming out "someone, someone please
Please shine a light into the black
Wade through the depths and bring me back
I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten
I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything, everything I need
I need you
I need you now
When my hopes seem to dangle
Somewhere just beyond my reach
You say you've heard my prayers
And read my words there on the beach
I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything, everything
I need you
I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
Cause you're everything, everything, everything..
I need you now

schools

well, ever since my last rant about schools back in september, Ive been doing good about the hole schools issue, but i dislike how i don't even get a say anymore in my future!

I love nackawic, Its a nice small school with a good education.. and you can make friends easily. Whats not to like? But ever since ive known what leo hayes is I have earned to go there and I just don't understand why I am not there yet! You know when you have leo hayes friends it can be hard to be the only one who goes to nackawic.. not like thats why I would like to endure leo hayes, but I dont think some of them realise how much it gets to me.. NHS is obviously a good school, sure they don't have a hockey team this year nor a football team, but if you base a school on that stuff then obviously your an airhead sports junky who only cares about hockey and football! I don't care if you like leo hayes better then nackawic... you just dont need to rub in my face, because you will just make me cry! and you will not like it, because when I cry, it is not a pretty sight..

so please.. while im making it through this... school phase phrensey.. thats all I ask of you.. :)

The Weekend!

This weekend was totally awesome if i do say so myself! =) had a great time guys!

Memories

- The bird that got fried on the powerline

- seeing SM3 in Imax! .. the friggen bushleauge water!

- "I call the back, in the middle, with my feet on the hump!"

- The Bryan Regon(SP?) CD..

- Lily's Theme Song

- How they spell 'Sportchek'

ps; Happy Birthday To Me!! :)

SO PUMPEDD! <3

hehe, :) so pumped, only 1 more week! <3

im still letting go
im still letting go
im still letting go
of my poor maple leafs x2

the playoffs were so close
but not for the leafs i guess
even though they kicked butt
they never tryed there best!

so us fans will have to deal,
act like our lifes arent over
and result to such teams as the senators

only, and only, because..

were still letting go
were still letting go
were still letting go
of our poor maple leafs

I think its that time
so let you all know
that I'll always love the leafs
even if christian doesn't

ERG!

UGH! i am SICK! abosoutly sick of it

you know what, I pray, and I pray, and I pray, and I pray and I pray! and you know what happens, nothing, absoutly nothing!!

Now, I know God makes things happen for a reason, but not to have good relationships with reletives, I truly to not get!!

Is it somthing I say towards them?? somthing I do? I don't know what I'm doing to offend people, apperently I give diry looks, roll my eyes at people constantly and mouth off ever other word.. News to me!? I always thought I was a nice person..

and you know what, It hurts, it really does, and I hate how many times ive been down the road with this one person, I try to talk to them, but it seems like my words just never get through!? I need you, I do, I need you..

I'm just so annoyed, so frustrated and ticked off. Why won't you listen to me! =(

ITS COMMING!

HNIBC IN 13 DAYS! =)

only human!!

Okay, a girl can only take so much of "The leafs suck" or, "Haha The leafs never made the playoffs" .Until you want to pound somthing into the ground! This reminds me of Lily when she had the situation of people always saying "Penguins suck" or, "Crosby Sucks". You know what, just as bad!!! gah!!

Okay, I've figured out the leafs suck. Okay? I don't care anymore, they do. I mean there only a team in the NHL, but. Whatever, whatever you says goes now doesn't it? Not really, Now i have never said the leafs are the best team in the world, but I am a hockey fan, I love hockey, I love the leafs, and saying the leafs suck, is probably the supidest thing in the hole world!! Stupid, you obviously either 1. Dont watch hockey 2. Want to annoy me.. Obviously its not that you don't like the leafs, or your a fan of some other team. Because if you did you would know to keep that crap to yourself! I know some people that happen to not like the leafs and go for other teams, and they are nothing like that unless were joking around... so mainly, yeah. I get it at school... GRRR!!!!!!!!! its stupid, its dumb. and I don't like it one bit... Does noone know nothing about hockey anymore?!!!

Now as for "haha, the leafs never made the playoffs" leading to "they suck" comment, well, if you watched hockey in the least bit, you would know they won there last game, but if they would of pulled there socks up, they probabaly woulda made it. but that does not mean they dont suck!! Get over it, the leafs should not be for bashing, so shutup!! Im sick of it, pain ol sick!!

I see you never made the playoffs either..

did you?!

kay..

You know what inches my skin? Fake fans. Yes, there is a such thing! Not saying that if your a hockey fan you have to know everything about your team, but atleast knowing a few players and watching some games, ya know. Keeping tabs on them. Kinda helps:P

I know people can relate with me when they dislike how people can just switch teams in an instant, I mean. Its okay if say you make a switch from ..... Bosten to the Leafs! (who can blame ya???), But when you switch you're favourite team everyday, week.. whatever. Really, what kind of fan are you?

Well, in the matter of switching teams all the time, I can kinda see that with christianity, if you don't know enough about Jesus, what hes done, and why he gave salvation. You're more then likely to switch to not having a faith at all, or somthing else, not knowing what you're getting yourself into! we gotta realize theres only one way. (like with hockey, theres only one way! the leafs!! haha, jk!) . But yes, you see my point. Funny how you can make anything in this world to do with a lesson about God. Makes sence, i mean. He did create it.

Confuzzeled

yes, a word some of you hear me use quite often, but this situation i really don't get.

Fights; I just don't get them. Now I myself, absoutly dislike fights yet alone the thought of people not liking me.. a bad habit i know, so when somebody gets mad at me, I usually try to resolve the conflict as fast as possible (because i hate fights!!), and it seems like most of the time, the fights. Thier really dumb!

Now i can understand if you fight because you don't agree on somthing, or because of somthing someone said, or somthing. But when people get 'mad' at me because of somthing I did, (like, ahem. Not putting my hear down ?!) Now that! Is just plain stupid.

Not like im calling people stupid, I just think you should choose your battles, if somthing does somthing you dont enjoy (example. swearing) Just talk to the person instead of making a big deal, getting mad at them, saying all this stuff behind thier back to other people and roll your eyes at them everytime you see them!!

thats really a big pet peeve of my, i just don't like it one bit.

I mean, what if God. Everytime we did somthing he didn't like, he got mad at us and wouldn't talk to us ? just cut us off in everyway, when we ask for forgiveness, he just cuts you off because he doesn't wanna forgive you yet. Wouldn't that sadden you ? make you frustrated ? Make you lose faith in him, exactly, but we know he would never do somthing like that, he loves us too much!

ahh , i feel a bit better.. =) but it still confuzzels me