sucky

well the last 2 days. have SUCKED. im not talking about like bad things have happened, i mean the way ive been acting.

there has been so many times where i have messed up. said the wrong thing, the truth is, i really dont know when to stop! ive been so diciving, kiniving.. hateful the past two days, its NOT funny.. i look at everyones blogs, im so happy that everyone is getting more in touch with God, makes me wanna be better.and i have been better. Ive just screwed up horibly the past two days and im ashamed of myself, so . once again, im back to sqaure one. when ive gone and sinned as bad as i have.. i just feel thankful to have a lord that forgives me so much and everytime i mess up, it helps me get closer&closer to him.. theres Just people that i see and Think, "wow.. there realtionship with God is so.. perfect" then the other side of me says "Chelsey, no-ones relationship with God is PERFECT, they all sin Just Like you do", then im back to reality, and really i feel so greatful i have the youth group i do.. the church i do. & so on and so fourth, i may not be perfect but he loves me anyway,

so im home for today, back off tomorrow. with a new attuide. once again, hopefully this time it`ll come to better use & the Lord will stay by myside like he always does